The Curse of Time & Choice
My mind has been consumed lately with all of the ideas, wants, pressures that are coursing through me. Wrought with ideas, my brain is trying to reconcile all I want to do, all I have not done and all of the things I did and no longer want or need in my life. It’s as if someone dumped a thousand ping pong balls in my head then turned on a fan to watch them all zoom through my brain space.
I have been overwhelmed before. You’ve likely heard me talk about it (self-disclosure is one of my key factors in my work and brand). I think that is just part of the human condition — to ebb and flow from feelings of overwhelm to nothingness. But this feels different. It’s like I am on the crux of something great but it is hard to trust the process without rushing it. I am getting clearer on my vision for the professional life I want and feel pulled to lead but with that greater clarity comes both eagerness and urgency (which you can understand can often be difficult to differentiate from one another).